Spent the whole morning struggled my way to understand cardiac arrythmias. I think I can understand, but I don't think so I can tell the whole picture using words, especially in the exam. So I am thinking maybe I could just give that up if she who delivered this lecture wants to grill us on this topic. It's complicated. Memorizing those awful drug names is what I can do now, at best. Memorize? Any tips on how to remember gibberish? Lepirudin, amiodarone, dipyridamole, bumetanide, milrinone, fondaparinux...etc. They just mean nothing if you just look at the word itself but we, PHARMERS, have to somehow thread the link between them and the disease and their mode of actions. And their side effects too. Some side effects are just... ridiculous. Can someone tell me why a drug that makes you pee (diuretics) can cause gynecomastia and impotence in male? Gynecomastia = breast enlargement in males. Impotence = infertility. And why a drug to control heart disease can cause grey skin? I know the answer is somewhere on earth but I just have no time to dive deep down to every drugs we came across in the course. Hundreds! My poor brain... And this time, not only negatively marked MCQs, but also short answer questions to be answered. Short answer. There's no information there to lead you to the answer. In MCQs, at least, you have some choices where you can find traces of hints that guide you to the answer. In MCQs as well, you can be less strict to yourself in the correct spelling of drugs' names. Hurmph!
Pharmacology, even though covers a lot of stuffs throughout the whole course, still okay to cope with because the final constitutes only 50% of the overall marks. The rest, you yourself should know where you are now. I am... not too far from pass, but heaven-to-hell distant away from HD. Am I far too ambitious to aim for an HD? Haha... I don't think I am going after that. That just load too much pressure on myself. Maybe a credit will do. Woo! Sounds not easy too. Forget it. I'll just target a pass then. Hurm.. feeling much better now.
Actually what I worry the most is the second paper, Pharmacy Practice. Only 1 day gap between the first and the second paper. What if I am headache or stomachache or backache, shoulderache...the whole body aches later? Things are just unpredictable. Well, the compounding practical that day. I keep hearing people in my group saying that they gonna fail the test because they overdosed the patient by 72 tablets. Well, people... We all added in 80 tablets that day. If you fail, my fate isn't much different from you I reckon. So, please stop saying that. No one likes to be reminded about the possibility to fail a test. I have no idea when will the result be out. But this suspense is definitely killing me. Hence, stop reminding. Shh!
Then we have a week break between the second and the third paper. Don't think that I can slow down my pace already because we gotta move out this unit on the next day the exam finished. We have to clear the unit by 5pm the next day, and make sure everything is clean. The carpet, the windows, the curtains, everything! When everyone is cheering and enjoying the holidays, we've tonnes of jobs to do. Well, a problem that can be solved with money isn't really a problem. Just hire someone to do the cleaning job. What's making me weary is the electricity and internet in the new unit. They all take time to set up. Money too. And the stuffs our landlord left there, yet to be cleared. If they don't move their things out, we can't move our stuffs in and start the cleaning job. Geez!
9 days away from exam. That's my text for my alarm. My biggest trouble in getting up is my tendency to lie-in. Some times 30 minutes. But sometime I'd end up extending my sleeping time for an hour or two extra. Then,
alamak~ Just look at my pimply forehead now and you'll know I'm under pressure now. *deep breath*
The worst thing now is... the weather... I can foresee a really irritating scotching hot days in the week ahead. 33-35 celcius maximum, near to 0% chance of raining. BAH! What the hell is wrong with Spring?! Everything is not right, not good. God knows how I feel now. Wondering how I gonna make full use of my swot-vac in a heat trapping environment. *sigh*
Sign off now. Wish me luck, people.. Ciao!
